E\u0219ti \u00eentr-o mul\u021bime de oameni cu care ai lucruri \u00een comun. R\u00e2zi, \u00eentrebi, \u021bi se r\u0103spunde, te mai apropii, te mai \u00eendep\u0103rtezi. Te ui\u021bi la ei \u0219i apoi te ui\u021bi \u00een tine. Sim\u021bi c\u0103 se leag\u0103 ceva, \u00een timp ce se dezleag\u0103 altceva. \u00ce\u021bi vine s\u0103 fugi, dar r\u0103m\u00e2i acolo. \u0218i cau\u021bi al\u021bi ochi, \u00een toat\u0103 goana aia de cuvinte \u0219i hohote de r\u00e2s care (pe)trec pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine. Cau\u021bi al\u021bi ochi care s\u0103 \u00eei vad\u0103 pe ai t\u0103i \u0219i s\u0103 citeasc\u0103 dincolo de hazul momentului. Care s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103, care s\u0103 se \u00eentrebe. Care s\u0103 recunoasc\u0103, \u00een forfota genelor tale, coordonatele c\u0103ut\u0103rilor tale. \u0218i s\u0103 mearg\u0103 acolo, s\u0103 te a\u0219tepte, cumin\u021bi, cu r\u0103bdare, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi desco\u0219i tu tumultul \u0219i faci un pas \u00een afara lui.\u00a0<\/p>\n
E aceea\u0219i c\u0103utare care n-a avut niciodat\u0103 succes. Aceea\u0219i c\u0103utare pe care o porne\u0219ti din nou, \u00een speran\u021ba c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi va ie\u0219i \u00een cale, de nic\u0103ieri, un erou care te va scoate din propria-\u021bi amor\u021beal\u0103. Care-\u021bi va spune: \u201dhei, \u0219tiu ce cau\u021bi, hai s\u0103 c\u0103ut\u0103m \u00eempreun\u0103: tu \u0219tii drumul – eu vin cu lumina \u0219i te \u021bin de m\u00e2n\u0103.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u0218i e zgomot mare \u00een c\u0103utarea aia. E o voce pe fundal care c\u00e2nt\u0103 \u00een 6 limbi acela\u0219i imn pierdut al unei singur\u0103t\u0103\u021bi care uneori acapareaz\u0103 tot, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i mul\u021bimile din jurul t\u0103u. \u0218i-\u021bi dispare z\u00e2mbetul \u0219i nu mai g\u0103se\u0219ti nici \u00eentreb\u0103ri de pus, nici r\u0103spunsuri de dat, \u0219i doar stai \u00eentr-un col\u021b, cu ochii pierdu\u021bi \u00een c\u0103ut\u0103rile alea nesf\u00e2r\u0219ite.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u0218i te retragi \u00een tine. Apoi te retragi fizic, e prea mult zgomot. Te \u00eentorci \u00een spa\u021biul t\u0103u, \u00een care te sim\u021bi safe, respiri ad\u00e2nc de c\u00e2teva ori, \u0219i-apoi te ui\u021bi \u00een oglind\u0103. \u0218i-\u021bi vezi ochii \u0103ia umezi care c\u0103utau r\u0103spunsuri \u0219i lumin\u0103 \u00een al\u021bi ochi. E at\u00e2ta forfot\u0103 \u00een ochii t\u0103i, c\u0103 nu \u0219tii cum s-o opre\u0219ti. At\u00e2ta zgomot, at\u00e2ta haos, at\u00e2ta agita\u021bie. \u00cenchizi ochii, respiri. 1,2,3,4 inspir\u0103. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 \u021bine. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 expir\u0103. \u00cenc\u0103 o dat\u0103. \u0218i-nc\u0103 o dat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Deschizi ochii. \u00ce\u021bi l\u0103crimeaz\u0103. \u00ce\u021bi \u0219tergi pome\u021bii blusha\u021bi cu degetele care-\u021bi alunec\u0103 pe umeri \u0219i te \u00eentrebi \u201ddar dac\u0103…?\u201d \u00ce\u021bi pui m\u00e2na st\u00e2ng\u0103 pe dup\u0103 um\u0103rul drept, te urmeaz\u0103 \u0219i dreapta. Le str\u00e2ngi \u00een \u00eencruci\u0219are \u0219i te \u021bii a\u0219a, \u00een bra\u021be, cu ochii \u00eenchi\u0219i \u0219i l\u0103crim\u00e2nzi, c\u00e2teva secunde. 1,2,3,4 inspir\u0103. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 \u021bine. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 expir\u0103.<\/p>\n
Se pare c\u0103 \u021bi-ai g\u0103sit eroul. E lini\u0219te. Ai dat singur\u0103tatea mai \u00eencet.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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E\u0219ti \u00eentr-o mul\u021bime de oameni cu care ai lucruri \u00een comun. R\u00e2zi, \u00eentrebi, \u021bi se r\u0103spunde, te mai apropii, te mai \u00eendep\u0103rtezi. Te ui\u021bi la ei \u0219i apoi te ui\u021bi \u00een tine. Sim\u021bi c\u0103 se leag\u0103 ceva, \u00een timp ce se dezleag\u0103 altceva. \u00ce\u021bi vine s\u0103 fugi, dar r\u0103m\u00e2i acolo. \u0218i cau\u021bi al\u021bi ochi, \u00een…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":197,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-194","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-confessions"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/female-body-line-art-tattoo-design-simple-minimalist.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/194","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=194"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/194\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":198,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/194\/revisions\/198"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/197"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=194"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=194"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=194"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}