{"id":453,"date":"2023-03-04T10:54:02","date_gmt":"2023-03-04T10:54:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/?p=453"},"modified":"2023-03-22T19:43:19","modified_gmt":"2023-03-22T19:43:19","slug":"rebel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/?p=453","title":{"rendered":"[Rebel]"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\" style=\"font-size:15px\"><strong>Part 1. I grew up not knowing who I was<\/strong>\n\nI was taught to dim my light\nand keep it locked in the corner of my heart\nI was taught to stay quiet\nand shape me according to their patterns\nI was taught that I was weak\nand helpless\nsometimes not enough,\nother times too much\nI was taught to be ashamed of not belonging\nI was taught to silence my inner voice\nand only repeat their words\nas my truth\nI was taught to fear the unknown\nto fear risks\nto choose others over me\nand prioritize their needs over my own\n\n<strong>Part 2. I grew up wanting to scream<\/strong>\n\nI grew up believing something was wrong with me\nsince I could not adjust to their needs or wants\nI tried, I did try so hard\nbut there was something inside me\nrebelling, fighting\n\nI grew up with an internal conflict\nwishing to be like someone else: \nan easy-going person, not so conscious,\nignorant, simple\nthinking maybe it would all be easier for me\n\nI grew up wanting to break away\nleave the prison called \u201chome\u201d behind\njust find those wings they hid from me\nput them on my back\nspread them and fly the hell away\n\nI grew up always looking for myself\nin other people\u2019s eyes\nWaiting for their approval, validation,\ntheir acceptance\nmeasuring my worth based on if they loved me\nnot understanding that their inability to love\nhad nothing to do with me\n\n<strong>Part 3. I grew up to be what I am today<\/strong>\n\nI grew up far away from myself\nfighting for the freedom to find me:\nthe one they never recognized\nthe one they rejected\nthe one they feared\n\nBut now\n\nNow I\u2019ve decided\nto embrace my imperfection\nto accept that I may be too much for some people\n\nStill\n\nI am going to let my light shine freely\nI am not going to shrink to fit anyone\u2019s low standards\nI am not going to apologize for always choosing me\n\nI am one hell of a woman\nI am full of life, passion, and love\nI am both strong and delicate\nBut more than that\nI am true to myself\nAnd I am not going to apologize for that\n<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Part 1. I grew up not knowing who I was I was taught to dim my light and keep it locked in the corner of my heart I was taught to stay quiet and shape me according to their patterns I was taught that I was weak and helpless sometimes not enough, other times too&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":454,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-453","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poems"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/IMG-1960.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/453","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=453"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/453\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":459,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/453\/revisions\/459"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/454"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=453"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=453"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eusuntdelia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=453"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}