Un pat ponosit, o ma\u0219in\u0103 veche de cusut cu roat\u0103\u00a0\u00eentr-un col\u021b al camerei, pe scaunul c\u0103reia st\u0103 un b\u0103rbat c\u0103runt, la vreo 60 de ani, care \u021bine un ac \u0219i o papiot\u0103 alb\u0103 \u00eentr-o m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i o \u021bigar\u0103 \u00een alta.<\/p>\n
– Ajut\u0103-m\u0103 tu s\u0103 bag a\u021b\u0103 pe ac, c\u0103 nu mai v\u0103d.<\/p>\n
– Stai a\u0219a, bre, c\u0103 nu cred c\u0103 v\u0103d nici eu. Lumina asta cald\u0103 a lu\u2019 matale nu e a\u0219a bun\u0103, de ce nu schimbi becul? Sau m\u0103car s\u0103 pui o lamp\u0103 aici l\u00e2ng\u0103 ma\u0219in\u0103.<\/p>\n
– Da\u2019 ce vrei, tat\u0103, s\u0103-mi vin\u0103 lumina dou\u0103 milioane?<\/p>\n
Alma ofteaz\u0103. Niciodat\u0103 nu a \u00een\u021beles cum de oamenii se resemneaz\u0103 \u00een a nu \u021bine pasul cu ceea ce \u00eei \u00eenconjoar\u0103. \u00ce\u0219i prive\u0219te tat\u0103l cu o neputin\u021b\u0103 pe care a gustat-o prima dat\u0103 \u00een copil\u0103rie \u0219i cu care n-a putut face pace niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cel ajut\u0103 \u0219i \u00eei prive\u0219te cu aten\u021bie reac\u021bia: clipe\u0219te ap\u0103sat c\u00e2nd apropie firul sub\u021bire de a\u021b\u0103 alb\u0103 de bucla acului \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i \u021bine respira\u021bia ca \u0219i cum ar performa cine \u0219tie ce opera\u021bie complicat\u0103. Dar pentru ni\u0219te ochi care nu mai v\u0103d at\u00e2t de bine, chiar este o opera\u021biune complicat\u0103. Reu\u0219e\u0219te \u0219i \u00eei d\u0103 acul, m\u00e2ndr\u0103. El nu zice nimic, dar \u00eei face cu ochiul ca \u0219i cum ar fi f\u0103cut o n\u0103zb\u00e2tie \u0219i r\u0103m\u00e2ne \u00eentre ei. Ea r\u00e2de \u0219i \u00eei spune:<\/p>\n
– Eu nu sunt de pe-aici.\u00a0<\/p>\n
El r\u00e2de, ne\u00eencrez\u0103tor.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i de ce ai venit?\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Pentru voi \u0219i pentru lume.<\/p>\n
– Pentru noi?\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Da.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i pentru lume, zici?<\/p>\n
– Da.<\/p>\n
– Cu ce scop?<\/p>\n
– S\u0103 v\u0103 iubesc a\u0219a cum nu a\u021bi fost iubi\u021bi. S\u0103 v\u0103 ajut s\u0103 l\u0103sa\u021bi jos ce nu e al vostru \u0219i s\u0103 nu \u00eel c\u0103ra\u021bi mai departe, c\u0103 prea s-a aglomerat P\u0103m\u00e2ntul de ce nu \u00eei mai e necesar \u0219i ne trage pe to\u021bi \u00een jos.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i noi nu \u0219tim s\u0103 facem asta?<\/p>\n
– Nu.<\/p>\n
– De ce?<\/p>\n
– Pentru c\u0103 nu v-a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat nimeni.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i ne \u00eenve\u021bi tu?<\/p>\n
– Nu. Eu v\u0103 ajut.<\/p>\n
– Cum?<\/p>\n
– Scriind.<\/p>\n
– Nu \u00een\u021beleg.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Mai e timp.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Discu\u021bia devenise un schimb de replici ca o trans\u0103 care \u00eei cuprinse pe am\u00e2ndoi. Alma \u0219tia c\u0103 nu pricepe nimeni ce spune, nici ea nu pricepea prea bine dac\u0103 ar fi pus-o cineva s\u0103 explice. Cum s\u0103 explici c\u0103 ai de f\u0103cut ceva pentru care \u00eenc\u0103 nu exist\u0103 cuvinte? Cum s\u0103 limitezi \u00een cuvinte ceva ce se simte at\u00e2t de puternic \u00eentre omopla\u021bi? Sim\u021birea aia dicteaz\u0103 tot, dar nu se poate explica. Doar se simte, c\u00e2nd \u00eenchizi ochii, ca atunci c\u00e2nd auzi pentru prima dat\u0103 un c\u00e2ntec care \u00ee\u021bi spune ceva dar nu prin cuvinte, ci prin ce treze\u0219te \u00een tine.<\/p>\n
– Complicat\u0103 treab\u0103, sim\u021birea asta. De unde vine?<\/p>\n
– La mine vine de dincolo. Am adus-o cu mine, arat\u0103 ca o pan\u0103 de scris care se activeaz\u0103 c\u00e2nd m\u0103 atinge ceva care treze\u0219te \u00een mine cealalt\u0103 eu, cu tot ce vine ea de dincolo.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i cealalt\u0103 tu, cum e?<\/p>\n
– \u00cen ce sens?<\/p>\n
– Cum arat\u0103, c\u00e2\u021bi ani are, cum o cheam\u0103?<\/p>\n
– Voi, oamenii, \u0219i defini\u021biile voastre. Ce importan\u021b\u0103 are?<\/p>\n
– P\u0103i are. Tu cum i te adresezi?<\/p>\n
– Eu sunt ea.<\/p>\n
– Acum?<\/p>\n
– \u0218i acum.<\/p>\n
– Aha.<\/p>\n
Tat\u0103l ei \u00ee\u0219i scutur\u0103 bra\u021bele a confuzie, \u00ee\u0219i pune un picior peste cel\u0103lalt \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i a\u0219eaz\u0103 m\u00e2na st\u00e2ng\u0103 \u00een pozi\u021bia \u201dEminescu\u201d, sau a\u0219a \u00eei spunea Alma. Un g\u00e2nditor boem, ar defini ea postura aia; nu un g\u00e2nditor oarecare.<\/p>\n
– P\u0103i \u0219i ce ai de f\u0103cut? continu\u0103 el. Care sunt pa\u0219ii urm\u0103tori?<\/p>\n
– Nu \u00eemi e clar nici mie procesul. Mi se arat\u0103 pe r\u00e2nd, \u00een anumite momente.<\/p>\n
– Ce momente?<\/p>\n
– Aleatorii.<\/p>\n
– E tare vag ce \u00eemi spui.<\/p>\n
– \u00cen\u021beleg.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Nu \u021bi se pare?<\/p>\n
– Mi se pare.<\/p>\n
– \u00cemi pari confuz\u0103.<\/p>\n
– Sunt.<\/p>\n
– P\u0103i \u0219i atunci cum po\u021bi vorbi despre asta cu at\u00e2ta lejeritate \u0219i \u00eencredere?<\/p>\n
– Cred.<\/p>\n
– Adic\u0103?<\/p>\n
– Doar cred. \u0218i din credin\u021ba asta mi se lumineaz\u0103 \u0219i drumul, pas cu pas.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Crezi c\u0103 a\u0219a func\u021bioneaz\u0103?<\/p>\n
– \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
– \u021ai s-au ar\u0103tat pa\u0219ii p\u00e2n\u0103 acum?<\/p>\n
– Cum crezi c\u0103 am ajuns aici?<\/p>\n
– Ai crezut mereu?<\/p>\n
– Nu. Dar am \u0219tiut mereu.<\/p>\n
– Ce ai \u0219tiut?<\/p>\n
– C\u0103 urmeaz\u0103 ceva \u0219i ce urmeaz\u0103 va avea sens \u00een toate cele \u00eent\u00e2mplate p\u00e2n\u0103 acum.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– \u0218i nu te-ai \u00eendoit niciodat\u0103?<\/p>\n
– Oh, ba da. De multe ori.<\/p>\n
– \u0218i ce ai f\u0103cut?<\/p>\n
– Am continuat.<\/p>\n
– Nu \u00een\u021beleg, la c\u00e2te ai tr\u0103it, acum ar fi trebuit s\u0103 fii\u2026 s\u0103 nu mai fii.<\/p>\n
– Nici eu nu \u00een\u021beleg. Dar e ceva \u00een mine care asta \u0219tie \u0219i asta face.<\/p>\n
– ?<\/p>\n
– Merge mai departe, no matter what.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Ce e?<\/p>\n
– E cealalt\u0103 eu, de dincolo, care \u0219tie. Ea m\u0103 \u021bine, ea m\u0103 sustrage de unde nu mi-e bine, ea m\u0103 \u00eendrum\u0103, ea m\u0103 a\u0219terne, ea m\u0103 ridic\u0103, ea m\u0103 \u021bine de m\u00e2n\u0103, ea m\u0103 \u021bine t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103. Pot s\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi zic un secret?<\/p>\n
– Da.<\/p>\n
– E nemuritoare.\u00a0<\/p>\n
–\u00a0 \u0218i dac\u0103 ar fi s\u0103 \u00eei dai un nume dintr-\u0103sta de la noi de aici, cum s-ar numi?<\/p>\n
– Psihologia o nume\u0219te rezilien\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
– Aha.<\/p>\n
– Cam multe aha-uri, spune ea r\u00e2z\u00e2nd.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Procesez.<\/p>\n
– Observ. Ai deasupra capului un cercule\u021b care pare c\u0103 se \u00eencarc\u0103. Ajunge informa\u021bia la tine, dar pe f\u0103r\u00e2me a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
– A\u0219a simt.<\/p>\n
– A\u0219a e. \u00centotdeauna primim nu c\u00e2t ni se ofer\u0103, ci c\u00e2t suntem preg\u0103ti\u021bi s\u0103 primim.<\/p>\n
– Frumoas\u0103 conversa\u021bie am avut, m\u0103i tat\u0103.<\/p>\n
– Era overdue deja de ceva timp. Ne-am g\u0103sit acum \u00een forma \u00een care s\u0103 o putem avea \u0219i s\u0103 ne lu\u0103m am\u00e2ndoi din ea ce ne e de folos.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Aha.<\/p>\n
R\u00e2d am\u00e2ndoi. Sunt doi b\u0103tr\u00e2ni de genera\u021bii diferite, unul cu v\u00e2rsta, unul cu sufletul. Se pare c\u0103 ea \u0219i-a luat mai multe dec\u00e2t el din conversa\u021bia pe care ea a \u00eenceput-o. Crede c\u0103 avea nevoie de o reamintire. Un reminder c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 e, \u0219i va fi, mereu, ceva acolo, \u00een\u0103untrul ei, venit cu ea de dincolo, nemuritor \u0219i d\u0103t\u0103tor de magie, care o \u021bine safe \u0219i \u00een mi\u0219care. \u0218i c\u0103, as long as she\u2019s here, she\u2019s got a thing or two to do, \u0219i trebuie doar s\u0103 cread\u0103, ca \u0219i p\u00e2n\u0103 acum. \u0218i, din fericire, credin\u021ba e ceva ce, \u00een acest moment al vie\u021bii ei, abund\u0103.<\/p>\n
– O s\u0103 vin s\u0103 te v\u0103d cur\u00e2nd, \u00eei spune ea.<\/p>\n
– Promi\u021bi?<\/p>\n
Alma ezit\u0103.<\/p>\n
– \u0218tii c\u0103 nu prea le am cu promisiunile.<\/p>\n
– Hai, te roag\u0103 tata. Vino s\u0103 m\u0103 vezi. E ca \u0219i cum \u00eemi mai adaugi trei ani la c\u00e2t mi-a mai r\u0103mas din via\u021b\u0103, asta simt c\u00e2nd te v\u0103d.<\/p>\n
Alma prive\u0219te \u00een gol, \u00eentoarce capul spre m\u00e2na lui st\u00e2ng\u0103 care o \u021bine str\u00e2ns de bra\u021b ca \u0219i cum s-ar \u021bine de via\u021ba \u00eens\u0103\u0219i.<\/p>\n
Iubirea pe care o simte fa\u021b\u0103 de tat\u0103l ei e o binecuv\u00e2ntare \u0219i un blestem cu care trebuie s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 toat\u0103 via\u021ba. Binecuv\u00e2ntare pentru c\u0103, \u00een ciuda a ceea ce a f\u0103cut el, iubirea aia cumva str\u0103bate din str\u0103fundurile fiin\u021bei ei \u0219i se ofer\u0103 lui, ca \u0219i cum ar fi fost pentru el dintotdeauna, de dincolo de carnea de pe ei \u0219i de lumea asta \u00een care tr\u0103iesc. E pentru ce a venit ea aici. Iar blestem\u2026 pentru c\u0103 vine la pachet cu mult\u0103 vinov\u0103\u021bie, neputin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i triste\u021be. Spune\u021bi-i voi, cum s\u0103 fac\u0103 pace cu neputin\u021ba de a salva un om care nu se vrea salvat? Cum s\u0103 se \u00eendep\u0103rteze f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 priveasc\u0103 \u00een urm\u0103, tras\u0103 \u00eenainte de propria via\u021b\u0103 \u0219i de datoria pe care o are fa\u021b\u0103 de ea \u00eens\u0103\u0219i \u0219i de lume – de a \u0219i-o tr\u0103i a\u0219a cum \u0219tie, a\u0219a cum vrea?<\/p>\n
– O s\u0103 vin s\u0103 te v\u0103d cur\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
– Bine, tat\u0103.<\/p>\n
– O s\u0103 m\u0103 a\u0219tep\u021bi?<\/p>\n
– \u00centotdeauna. O s\u0103 privesc pe fereastr\u0103 \u0219i o s\u0103 ciulesc urechile, s\u0103-\u021bi aud pa\u0219ii \u0219i b\u0103t\u0103ile ritmate \u00een u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n
– Tat\u0103?<\/p>\n
– ?<\/p>\n
– Dac\u0103 \u021bi s-ar putea \u00eendeplini o dorin\u021b\u0103 acum, oricare ar fi aia, ce ai alege?<\/p>\n
– O dorin\u021b\u0103?<\/p>\n
– Da.<\/p>\n
– Oricare?<\/p>\n
– Oricare.<\/p>\n
– S\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi fiu mai mult dec\u00e2t \u021bi-am fost.\u00a0<\/p>\n
– Tocmai ce mi-ai devenit. \u021ai s-a \u00eendeplinit dorin\u021ba.<\/p>\n
– A\u0219a de simplu?<\/p>\n
– A\u0219a de simplu uneori.<\/p>\n
– Dac\u0103 ar \u0219ti oamenii\u2026<\/p>\n
– Or s\u0103 afle la un moment dat.<\/p>\n
– Tu \u0219tiai de mult, a\u0219a-i?<\/p>\n
– \u0218tiam.<\/p>\n
– \u0218tiai, desigur c\u0103 \u0219tiai. C\u0103 tu nu e\u0219ti de pe aici\u2026<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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